I have shared with you about my struggles with my daughters; including what happened last year with our youngest Ruthy. I have shared all the process I have gone through; my despair, my anger even at the fact of being insulted, put down. I had kept all the hurtful texts and emails that she sent me when she got mad at me the last time, and finally cut off our relationship. We have not heard or seen them except for a few minutes in parking lots, so we can give gifts to our grandchildren for the past year. I have also shared with you what God did a couple of months ago when I was crying one more time missing them, yearning to see them and have a relationship with them. Do you remember that? God told me: LET ME BE YOUR DAUGHTERS FOR YOU! I took him up on it and have felt his embrace every time I have missed them, or felt anger coming over me because of the memories of what happened. I can honestly say that instantly, I felt God taking hold of me and giving me calm, comfort, and just letting myself fall into his loving arms.
I got to the point I totally entered into my Fathers rest in the matter. I would have never been able to do this without him. Just wait on him! With no limitations, no begging, nothing! Just rest confidently on His love and forget about trying to fix things myself like I have always done. STAY AWAY!
Saturday, I was doing my housework and Sammy was doing the yard-work; all of a sudden, he came in and said to me: Look! I am going to read you some texts I have been receiving from Ruth! He went on reading them to me. I stayed calm, to be honest a little skeptical. I thought, What now? As he kept reading I did not know what to expect. We talked a little bit about it and he went back outside. I had a class that evening, so when he came inside I was getting prepared for it. I asked him to wait till afterwards to tell me all about it. I remained in Gods peace and had a wonderful meeting online with my group.
When it was over, I asked Sammy to tell me everything. They had gotten on the phone and talked for quite a while. She had said she missed us, and wanted to get together to talk to us. Then, Sammy and Ruth had agreed on getting together the next day (yesterday), for a brunch here at our home. Sammy planed it all out, told me he was going to do the cooking, cleaning, etc. I could not believe my ears! In my heart I was asking God: What are you doing? What are you doing????? On the other hand I did not know WHAT to expect! I event told Sammy, “I am not going to get my hopes up”!
Then came Sunday! I had no pressure over me since Sammy was going to take care of everything! He even told me: YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING! I AM GOING TO COOK, CLEAN UP, ETC. I could tell he was excited about the whole thing. So I took my time to get ready, felt calm, and started to bet excited about seeing my daughter, my grandchildren, the whole family. But I was still cautious. When they got here I was already seating in the living room with Chacha and Sammy was getting things ready to go in the kitchen. They got here and we embraced like if nothing had ever gone wrong. We talked; I had a lot of questions about the kid’s school, how big they have grown! They are 13, 7 and 5. So beautiful!!!!!!!!! My Ruthy So sweet, well spoken and smart as ever, and Fausto her husband, kind, funny and a great father and husband to my daughter.
We had a great brunch! Sammy has become a great little cook in these four years! And he kept his word that I had to do nothing to get things going. You have to realize that this is a total opposite of what things used to be in this family! I have always been the mover and doer, the one that made things happen! But I have stopped! After seeing what my doing does to people, especially the ones close to me, and failing every time, I have stopped. Now take a look at what happens when God does the impossible!
Not only did we have a great and pleasant time yesterday, things that had never happened before, happened. No arguments, no hurt feelings, I was a little scared that Chacha was going to be afraid of the younger children. I did have a talk with her before they got here and told her: CHACHA, THE CHILDREN ARE COMING TODAY, I WANT YOU TO BE OKAY, BE NICE TO THEM, DON’T GET SCARED WHEN THEY TOUCH YOU! THEY ARE NOT GOING TO HURT YOU OK? IT WILL BE OKAY! ( I am using capitals to differentiate only). When they got here I had no idea how she was going to act! She used to be terrified of them because they wanted to play with her! They wanted to touch her! NORMAL KINDS!
Well! Will you believe that she was terrific with the children? She did bark when the door bell rang, but when she recognized them she started wagging her tail and going to them, even playing with them! UNBELIEVABLE! I kept saying…Wow Chacha! You are doing great girl! And the kinds were gentle, kind, without chasing her or pulling on her!
When brunch was over and we got off the pretty table Sammy had set, I suggested he put all the dishes in the dishwasher to save himself some work and left to go to the bathroom; when I got back, to my surprise, Ruthy was washing the dishes, Alicia was drying, and Sammy and Fausto were there also but to the side. You see, this has never, ever, happened before. We have always gotten stuck with all the work, and I was not prepared for this amazing change! I could not believe it! Ruthy also kept our two younger grandchildren in check all the time they were here. They are very, very active, and it is hard to keep them quiet and behaving in our home. But everything went beautifully well.
We spent all afternoon together, the smaller children wanted to watch a movie so I did put on a movie for them. All the family finally got together in the living room and we watched one of my favorites: Benny and Joon. When it was over, they got ready to leave.We were at the front door hugging and saying see you later, when Ruth said she wanted to ask us for forgiveness! This is something that I needed to hear but was willing to let go of if it did not happen; but it did! She did not blame, did not demand, she asked with tears in her eyes! Of course I forgive her! I had already let it go when I decided to trust my Father even in this.
All the things I was expecting happened! Nothing that I was “afraid” of happened! And you know what? I had nothing to do with it! I did not promote the meeting, I did not get anything arranged, I did not fret about it, NOTHING. God did everything in me, and in Sammy who permitted God to do the right thing through him, and in Ruthy who also has been permitting the love of God change her.
See? This is what happens when someone STAYS STILL AND LET GOD BE GOD! Even Chacha changed!
MY CUP RUNETH OVER!
